Scare Tactics...

I always sit at the front of TV every Monday mid night at 0010. Why? Cos TV is showing “Scare Tactics”, which is hosted by Shannen Doherty by that time. It’s a TV program, which Americans can set up their friends or families by shocking them. Their tactics are really scary! Until my as audience, almost die for heart attack! They are really scary, I hope I won’t meet them for forever, although I wish I could be Shannen Doherty closely! But on 27 / 07 / 2005, my ex called me up! My heart almost stopped beating! My ex’s words are even scary than those tricks in “Scare Tactics”!! My ex asked me whether I am still available or not. Cos my ex wanted to be with me again! Argh!! Quickly I told him that I prefer to be single, as I love freedom more than anything does! Further more, I am not ready to be in any relationship yet! This is even more than “Scare Tactics”! I just can’t help myself from being horrified! I am sick of relationship or attachment!! I never want to be too cared. It will make me feel as I am drowning, and sinking into deep blue sea! Moreover, I am still young and not matured enough, and without any financial background, and not caring enough, and I am still underlying my family… What I had expected in relationship is totally different with what I had during a relationship! I always dream that I would meet a partner who is older, richer than me. And of course, my partner will have to bear all my living expenses, at least 50% of my expenses! And only then I will have more times and better mood to be with my partner… If with my present condition, I bet don’t have to wait for 3 months, after 3 weeks sure we will break out 1! As I have lots of work everyday, and when my workload is more than I can bear, I will Ki Siao. That’ why I know it won’t be long…