hmmmm....
now i become a totally bad guy! i did all the bad things! but am i really bad? i think so! cos i am always a bad guy and always do bad things. but this is the first time i feel sorry...
hmmmm....
don't know why my senior dislikes my ah lai so much! though i am the victim, i never even blame him. but my senior told me that my ah lai is not an ideal guy for me. i don't know, and i refuse to know. i kno friends might say i am coward, cos i dare not ta face the truth...
YES, I AM COWARD! so how? did i get around and suck your blood? pls... let me rest in peace, with my coward character...
the person i feel for, doesn't feel for me; the person feels for me isn't the person i feel for him! what a HUGE joke? it really sets me down... i can't control my own life! is this the meaning of life? is it??
can anyone offers me his / her helping hand to guide or pull me out? pls...
i don't believe in flying angels, but i believe in earth angels! many people around are the earth angels! but, can anyone just simply borrows me his / her hand? pls...? or maybe a hug?
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Thursday, May 25, 2006
happy?? birthday
生日如期般过了。。。也得到了我的金锁匙，还得到了额外的礼物啊，祝福啊等等的！
应该是满开心的。但。。。有点失落了，因为我长大了！
我不能再像从前一般的任性地花钱了。要好好计划我的未来，要好像阿赖那样，二十七岁就有自己的汽车了，二十九岁就有屋子！我一定要以阿赖为榜样！
无所事事的日子只可以过多一个月，之后，我就要改头换面了！
哈哈哈哈哈哈
希望真能如此！
应该是满开心的。但。。。有点失落了，因为我长大了！
我不能再像从前一般的任性地花钱了。要好好计划我的未来，要好像阿赖那样，二十七岁就有自己的汽车了，二十九岁就有屋子！我一定要以阿赖为榜样！
无所事事的日子只可以过多一个月，之后，我就要改头换面了！
哈哈哈哈哈哈
希望真能如此！
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
days with pong pong ...
hmmm.... i didnt know when did my brother buy a pomeranian puppy.... but this pomeranian came to my house on saturday's night, when i was having a very serious headache when was sleeping... suddenly i heard a puppy's barking. i woke up straightly and walked out from my room to see what was going on...
then, it was the first time i saw her, pomeranian puppy... very de cute!!! but honestly, i love pets, but i dont reli like to keep them. cos i worry i cant be a good owner to look after them, so i never wanted to buy pets.
on sunday, my brother went out for whole day. so i fed her... and played with her... haha... very funny, but noisy... once i left her for a while, she kept barking till i went her... aiyo... then at nighttime, i played with her with my brother and sister in law. she kept coming to me. cos she found i am familiar already... hehehe... my sister in law was jealous...
on monday, i brought her to my office as my brother was in johor, so none was in home, so i had to take her to my office. at around 4pm, my brother called and told me her name, PONG PONG, what a funny name. but as long as her daddy likes it, i have nothing to say... later when i was home at around 7pm, i let her out to walk for a while... later i kept her in room... she laid on my arm, suddenly my phone was ringing, it was ai lim,
"hey, tmrw i might be going to singapore already, can we come out and hang around for a while?"
"ok ar, i will contact soo yee and jia chyi then."
"see u then."
then i called soo yee and jia chyi. they both were ok with the suggestion. so i was worrying, should i take pong pong out with me? or should i just let her home? hmmm....
i guess she knew my situation... so she just slept thr, i kept her in cage and she didnt even bark. suddenly i felt very sorry to her... i worried it would bark when i go out...
whole night i was thinking of her... later when i was home, i released her out from cage. she was happy and i played with her for a short while as i was very sleepy... then i left her and went on bed... hmmmm.... she knew i was sleepy and she did not even bark and went to sleep again... how thoughtful she is...
the second morning was tuesday, which is yesterday. i got up at 7.15am. she saw me and ran here and thr, very happy... i played with her for a while, then fed her... settled feeding her, i kept her at the outside cage. then i took my shower. she didnt protest, just sitting thr waiting for me. when i was done, i put her in cage, she protested and kept barking... i thought she wanna pee or what, so i released her. she just sat on the floor... i tried to cape her, but she refused, so i sat and waited for her to go in the cage. around 20 minutes later, i kept her in and took her out. the whole day i kept her in the cage. she barked to protest, but i just ignored her as i was hyper busy...
when i was home, i let her run for a short while. then i kept her in room again. i played with her for a long while this time, as i felt sorry for caping her whole day... so she played with me happily. then i felt sleepy, she was sleepy too... so we slept la, she laid on my arm...
finally her daddy and mummy was home, i was, reliefed!! thank god!!
after that 3 days, my nose allergy attacked again!! i was having running nose since last night... sigh...
then, it was the first time i saw her, pomeranian puppy... very de cute!!! but honestly, i love pets, but i dont reli like to keep them. cos i worry i cant be a good owner to look after them, so i never wanted to buy pets.
on sunday, my brother went out for whole day. so i fed her... and played with her... haha... very funny, but noisy... once i left her for a while, she kept barking till i went her... aiyo... then at nighttime, i played with her with my brother and sister in law. she kept coming to me. cos she found i am familiar already... hehehe... my sister in law was jealous...
on monday, i brought her to my office as my brother was in johor, so none was in home, so i had to take her to my office. at around 4pm, my brother called and told me her name, PONG PONG, what a funny name. but as long as her daddy likes it, i have nothing to say... later when i was home at around 7pm, i let her out to walk for a while... later i kept her in room... she laid on my arm, suddenly my phone was ringing, it was ai lim,
"hey, tmrw i might be going to singapore already, can we come out and hang around for a while?"
"ok ar, i will contact soo yee and jia chyi then."
"see u then."
then i called soo yee and jia chyi. they both were ok with the suggestion. so i was worrying, should i take pong pong out with me? or should i just let her home? hmmm....
i guess she knew my situation... so she just slept thr, i kept her in cage and she didnt even bark. suddenly i felt very sorry to her... i worried it would bark when i go out...
whole night i was thinking of her... later when i was home, i released her out from cage. she was happy and i played with her for a short while as i was very sleepy... then i left her and went on bed... hmmmm.... she knew i was sleepy and she did not even bark and went to sleep again... how thoughtful she is...
the second morning was tuesday, which is yesterday. i got up at 7.15am. she saw me and ran here and thr, very happy... i played with her for a while, then fed her... settled feeding her, i kept her at the outside cage. then i took my shower. she didnt protest, just sitting thr waiting for me. when i was done, i put her in cage, she protested and kept barking... i thought she wanna pee or what, so i released her. she just sat on the floor... i tried to cape her, but she refused, so i sat and waited for her to go in the cage. around 20 minutes later, i kept her in and took her out. the whole day i kept her in the cage. she barked to protest, but i just ignored her as i was hyper busy...
when i was home, i let her run for a short while. then i kept her in room again. i played with her for a long while this time, as i felt sorry for caping her whole day... so she played with me happily. then i felt sleepy, she was sleepy too... so we slept la, she laid on my arm...
finally her daddy and mummy was home, i was, reliefed!! thank god!!
after that 3 days, my nose allergy attacked again!! i was having running nose since last night... sigh...
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
what if...
here i stand alone with this weight upon my heart
and it will not go away
in my head i keep on looking back
right back to the start
wondering what and why would it make it change
well i try but i had to cross the line
and still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
this is what i feel recently!!!
and it will not go away
in my head i keep on looking back
right back to the start
wondering what and why would it make it change
well i try but i had to cross the line
and still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
this is what i feel recently!!!
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
20060503
raining day...
it rains since this morning... it's really a very refreshing day! i love rainy day! but last night was so bad...
i sent few messages since 5pm to my dear, but no delivery reports. i didn't know what happened, and i dared not to call, cos maybe my dear was in a meeting or what, so i just kept worrying. at around 2200 something, i tried to call, but couldn't get through... i was, from worried to scared. until 2323 hour, i received a message from my dear, telling was busy having a meeting with superior and supplier... oh my god!!!
these few days don't know why i suddenly become hyper sensitive, i mean emotional... sigh... poor senior, cos my senior has to take all my bad emotions... hehe... but my senior never complaints... how nice!!
it rains since this morning... it's really a very refreshing day! i love rainy day! but last night was so bad...
i sent few messages since 5pm to my dear, but no delivery reports. i didn't know what happened, and i dared not to call, cos maybe my dear was in a meeting or what, so i just kept worrying. at around 2200 something, i tried to call, but couldn't get through... i was, from worried to scared. until 2323 hour, i received a message from my dear, telling was busy having a meeting with superior and supplier... oh my god!!!
these few days don't know why i suddenly become hyper sensitive, i mean emotional... sigh... poor senior, cos my senior has to take all my bad emotions... hehe... but my senior never complaints... how nice!!
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