sacrifications for growing up...

grown up and work, dont need to suffer for studying...

guess this is what teenagers and kids will think...i had this kinda thought once also... but now, wish time could turn back... i had paid for so much for growing up... i cant afford to give up anything now... need time to recover, at least 2 weeks... am still sick... sad.. nose allergy is attacking...

往事只能回味…

刚睡醒时看到了尤雅大姐演唱会的广告，很不经意地唱了伊人的成名曲「往事只能回味」，很自然地，我也想起了一幕幕的往事…

当我还小的时候，老妈很爱唱这首歌曲，而我也常听。当然，我完全体会不了那种意境。

现在我能体会那意境了，这也意味着我已长大了！
　
Part 1

往事只能回味…

刚睡醒时看到了尤雅大姐演唱会的广告，很不经意地唱了伊人的成名曲「往事只能回味」，很自然地，我也想起了一幕幕的往事…

当我还小的时候，老妈很爱唱这首歌曲，而我也常听。当然，我完全体会不了那种意境。

现在我能体会那意境了，这也意味着我已长大了！
　
Part 1

sickness...

i am sick again... heavy flu...why i always being attacked by flu? hate flu... i even hate those aunties who are too free to gossip around. don't even know what the heck is in their brain! hatred makes me angry, but i try to hold my temper. i wanna be a good EQ manager. so stressed for these few weeks, and have to go through the stress till the end of this year... don't know when can get over this illness, started to ill since middle of september.

hungry now... not yet go for lunch. rushing quotation...

i don't understand why some people can act like nothing happened after the harmness he brought to other? the world is really unfair to everyone. some still live nicely after hurting people, some, live unhappily, even he brings no harm to people... really unfair... i dont wanna change anything that is existing, i just want a fair life... where all people will get rewarded or punished accordingly... i feel selfish people always live better than other type of people, and selfish people bring most harm... only those kind hearted people will get bullied... why? thought the world has justice, but in fact, no, i mean NO! fed up... nothing will cheer me, just follow the old steps and go on my life in this way... i tried to fight, i tried to protest, i tried to object, all comes to nothing... fed up, really fed up with everything, guess it's time to accept what is coming... no point to fight, i won't win in this battle for forever, so what for? sad... feeling so suffer to accept, but other than accept, i have no more way to go...

sleepy mood...

A
maybe because i slept too late last night, now darn sleepy... deleting some photos in my friendster. i kept uploading photos b4, now have to delete it. and i wanna fresh up my friendster photos. already bored with the recent photos...


B
eye is dried, nose is itchy, having cough, running nose, eye itchy, nosebleed, and flu, all are caused by the stupid indonesia fire! now in sitiawan, u may look like in genting, but the weather is super duper hot!! now i have to wear mask to go out, else, nosebleed... so sad...


C
now i am the redecorating my office stage, replacing new posters, placing hanging mobiles, brochures, itineraries, cleaning work and more... so tire... next monday going out for tour again. stressed...


D
why i have to go through all this? i am sad... after all these hurts, i feel like i am almost numb d... can anyone help me?

心情的记录...

第一篇

现在在路途上，车上除了我，还有三十三位即将升上中学的小六生。没错！我正在工作，带领着这批小六生开始他们的毕业旅行！他们会不会因兴奋而睡不着？我不知。但我自己却因紧张而失眠了！或许我已太久没有带领小六生了，所以一直很压力！

第二篇

前阵子去了本国的著名避署高原，发生了一件不可思议的事！一向来入住酒店都很谨慎的我，偏偏就在当天忘了一些禁忌；也因为这次的疏忽，我碰到毕生难忘的经历！

当天，我和朋友出去喝酒，直至半夜才回房。我一人住。由于太疲累了，我竟然不到五分钟就睡着了！睡着睡着，朦朦胧胧之中好像有人把我摇醒，然后我就听到房门外有手推车的声音；我也不当一回事，因为我满脑子的睡虫一直叫睡觉。

“砰”

忽然间好像有人将手推车很用力地撞上我房门，把我惊醒！我心里很好奇，但也敌不过睡虫的呼唤，又倒下睡着了…

后来，这情况持续发生了四次，我就觉得不对劲，想了想，就换床位。换了床位，感觉似乎比较好了。但那声音依旧困扰着我！我知道这样继续下去绝对不是办法，就念了一段佛经，果然那声音已没那么频密地发出，直至我把佛经念完，声音也消失了…

supernatural ncident in highlands...

i went to highlands on the 3 october, staying overnight there. at the middle of the night, when i was sleeping, i heard a sound of heavy trolley moving. it's alike the sound of the room service trolley was moving, then suddenly the trolley bumped on my room door! i was shocked and jumped up from my bed! after that, no more sound. and i continued sleeping... and not longer than 30 minutes, the sound came again! again, i was awakened! i was so angry! and thought to go out and scold the next room. but after another thought, i decided to change bed... but after i changed bed, the sound was still there to disturb me. i realised that something shouldn't happen is happening!! i sat up and read dharma in my heart silently... after i finished the dharma, the sound disappeared! i was so scared, but my tiredness controlled me and i fell asleeped again... it's my true experience, believe it or not? it's up to you!