an easy going guy...

Just now my unknown and mystery customer came to collect his air ticket. He called up and made booking verbally. I issued his ticket, only then I realized that I don’t have his contact… My mind was going wild, what if he was just a liar? Then I will have to lose 1k again! But just now he came, a bit out of my expectation, but not too much. He should be thin, fair and with big eyes according to his voice. But when I really saw him, he is thin, tall, quite toned, and still with big eyes. He is very easy going; we talked and chatted a lot. This is my 3rd time to talk my heart out. He made me feel comfort and believe in him. So happy!!

Scare Tactics...

I always sit at the front of TV every Monday mid night at 0010. Why? Cos TV is showing “Scare Tactics”, which is hosted by Shannen Doherty by that time. It’s a TV program, which Americans can set up their friends or families by shocking them. Their tactics are really scary! Until my as audience, almost die for heart attack! They are really scary, I hope I won’t meet them for forever, although I wish I could be Shannen Doherty closely! But on 27 / 07 / 2005, my ex called me up! My heart almost stopped beating! My ex’s words are even scary than those tricks in “Scare Tactics”!! My ex asked me whether I am still available or not. Cos my ex wanted to be with me again! Argh!! Quickly I told him that I prefer to be single, as I love freedom more than anything does! Further more, I am not ready to be in any relationship yet! This is even more than “Scare Tactics”! I just can’t help myself from being horrified! I am sick of relationship or attachment!! I never want to be too cared. It will make me feel as I am drowning, and sinking into deep blue sea! Moreover, I am still young and not matured enough, and without any financial background, and not caring enough, and I am still underlying my family… What I had expected in relationship is totally different with what I had during a relationship! I always dream that I would meet a partner who is older, richer than me. And of course, my partner will have to bear all my living expenses, at least 50% of my expenses! And only then I will have more times and better mood to be with my partner… If with my present condition, I bet don’t have to wait for 3 months, after 3 weeks sure we will break out 1! As I have lots of work everyday, and when my workload is more than I can bear, I will Ki Siao. That’ why I know it won’t be long…

my collections...

Today my mood is quite ok. No ups and downs, just calm for whole morning. I like this kinda feeling, feeling peace, harmony and cozy. My sis came and asked me to accompany her to do research for her stuffs. Then I spotted few special candles that I like them so much. I bought them, haha, no surprised. My friends know I am kinda crazy for candles. I buy candles whenever or wherever I see them. I bought in Kuching, Redang, ShangHai, Ipoh and few more places I went. I have candles collection. My brothers, sister, future sister – in – law also buy for me. Even my mum, who always mumbling me for buying candles also buys for me. Candles, candles and candles, I love candles as much as I love crystals. Crystal points, crystal balls, pendants, bracelets, original shaped and lots more. But within these few weeks, I contributed my crystals to those who I really care and hope for their happiness.

mosquitoes...

i hate mosquitoes!!! my skin is hyper allergy to them!!!

downs...

these few days my mood turns from ups to downs, or from downs to up drastically. i think i know why, it is because i need a vacation already. my working load is exceeding my limit already... but i still have 5 more days to go, cos my colleague will only come back on next Monday. most of my time i feel down, but i never give up to face & find out what has really made me feel down...! so, wish for me!!

20050725

today i wake up so early, nothing to do, so i online and intend to write something. last fiday i watched charmed, the is the episode where Prue's power got stronger. but before she grew, she faced emotional problems. she was so helpless, and she was trying to fight her bad emotions. lastly she realised that she shouldn't fight them, but she should face them! she found calmness after she dealt with her emotions, and her power grew until so strong! i think i shall learn her to fae my own emotions and feeling. only then i won't be hurt easily!

20050722

So sad, this morning my mood was grey, cos I had made a big mistake, but I realised that I can’t be like this for any longer. So I made up my mind to fight my grey! And I called my friend in taiping, chuah to chat for a while. We talked and I felt myself was getting better! I won’t give up to make my friend surrounding to feel happy!

busy day...

today was really busy... until i feel so tired.... had to answer aloy of calls, entertained customers and the most happiest thing is, my daddy (best friend in ipoh, who is one year older than me) came to visit me! so warmth...

another abandoned caring friend....

i always forget the existance of my close sissy's friend. she is Joyce. she is a patient, understanding, cool, cute, rich, helpful, caring and very pretty also.

Patient, is because she always has to listen to my craps, mournings and rubbish. i always think of her when i am happy or stressed. she will listen it patiently, never feels that i am bothering her.

Understanding, is because whatever my problems are, she will never be overreacted, she can understand what i really feel or think, and she can accept even for my crazy thoughts.

Cool, is because she always observes things or a person quietly, even when she disagrees with my way for handling problems, she will not bother me.

Cute, is because of the way she speaks, like cartoon roles. none can copy the unique way she speaks. maybe it is because she watches alot of japan anime & cartoons.

Rich, is because she always treats me dinner or lunch when i meet her in KL. that day bought me whole set of Japanese anime, the God of cookery, and bought me salt crystal lamp for my birthday.

Helpful, is because she helps me alot to get rooms during Super Peak Season. she works in hotel line, so i always support my group to her hotel.

Caring, is because she always cares for her friends. she will feel sad for you if you tell her you are unhappy, she will be happy for you if you tell her that you are happy.

lastly, Pretty, is because she is very nice, so i HAVE TO add this for her.

anyways, she is really a nice friend to be with. i feel my life in travel line is worthy, cos i have tha chance to get to know this amazing friend. although i have alot of business partner who sucks, she told me to focus on my future, no point to look back and angry for nothing.

I AM BLESSED TO HAVE HER AS FRIEND! I THINK SHE IS THE ANGEL ON EARTH!

headache...

wow! my head has been aching for whole day since i woke up this morning!!!

20050718

today is really bad! first, early in the morning, 1 of my bus owners told me that his bus was broken down! og GOD! he called up at 8.15am, my group was leaving at 9.00am! fortunately my bro could get a replacement. but it was 10 minutes late.then today my business partner came to my area and fought my tour packages price! my mood was really, bad! the only thing i feel happy for, was i had settled the misunderstanding between shin ying and i.

hard working day...

Yesterday I came home and started to online until 5pm. Then I went to sleep. Until this morning around 9am only woke up! Wahaha… today I went to a hp shop and seeking for 512 mmc card. But I didn’t have enough money to buy. This afternoon I ate vegetarian for my lunch with my brother’s friends. They asked me to go to one of their house. His house is still in renovation, will be done at the end of the year. I washed all the clothes, and wiped the floor. So hardworking as my mum is not in this weekend.

yay........!!

yesterday i met my friend. didn't see him for quite long already! so surprised! today i saw him again, but i couldn't get to talk to him as i was in rush when i bumped into him! when i reached my office, i just took out my handset and intended to send him a message, but he already sent me first!!!

relationship...

i hope i can meet my true love within this month! cos i watched drama just now and suddenly felt like wanting someone to care me... haha, i guess my friends will yell, "next time don't watch, after watching become SIAO!!"

but i really feel so, you can't blame me! i am normal!!!

anyways, i haven't really over what happened to my last relationship. still shading me under that horror impact! crying...

please... neutral me in between want & don't want! somebody please help me!!!

20050713

Day by day, my life becomes tougher! Now I miss my leisure days in June; doing nothing, just picked up few calls within a day. Later at the end of June, I have a lot of works to rush. Today was my first day to work alone, my colleague is on leave until 01/08/2005. I expected it would be busy and crowded day. But, only few calls came in at the same time and I failed to receive some. My head was terribly aching! Damned it! I passed my times doing nothing. Later I called Joyce up, when I heard her voice, only then I realised that I rely on her so much! I spilled a lot of things happened lately to her. She is still as cute as before. She’s one of my most trustable friends. She is very cute & rich! Oh, today I received a message from our famous artist, Shin Ying. She asked me to update my life here! So sweet! She didn’t reply me and I guessed she’s busy with her assignments. So I didn’t want to disturb her. Yay! My later few hours become so happy! Oh ya, now I guess I know what made me headache! Last night I slept at 4am and this morning I woke up at 7.30am… Exciting… oh, my friend, chuah from taiping came back from ShangHai Monday… she said it’s very Hot there as it is Summer there! I hate summer!! I love winter… Winter is really nice, actually I should say “WINTER WITHOUT SNOW” is the nicest scenery and weather to me! I hope this year end I’ll have the chance to go to Taiwan! This year Taiwan is my Favourite place as Ah Mei says “Welcome to Taiwan! Na Lu Wa~ Ee Ya Na Lu Wa!” Yahaha… for those out there, ah mei, zhang hui mei is my idol!

new lifestyle...

Today I have to wake up early as my colleague’s leave starts from today until 01 / 08 / 2005. Pity me, I used to wake up at 8.30am, but now, I have to wake up at 7am… I hate leave! I never apply leave; I know even if I apply, my leave won’t be approved. I go to work even when I’m sick. Last 2 months I was seriously sick, still went to work! So pity…

headache....!

argh!!
Headache!!!
Dying....!

this afternoon my bro's bus stuck in sand, near to Segari Turtle Center, i went there with my eldest bro to see what could we do to tow the bus. but it seemed like so serious as almost quarter of the wheel stuck in sand! the tow truck came and couldn't even tow my bus from the sand! and the sun there was too hot for me! today i was exposed and become darker!!

still headache!!!

sunny daysss....

Days are too sunny to me! I dislike hot sun! It makes me feel bad! I like cloudy days! Not too hot and not raining. Cloudy days let me enjoy riding motorcycle! Yay! So glad cos I received a message from Pi Wei saying her new life in U is quite fun! She is in USM Penang, but I’m not sure whether she’s in main or branch. Anyways, it’s more than enough cos she would tell me her life there. She saw ‘Guang Liang’, ‘Chui San’, and ‘Han Wei’ there! Crazy like nuts! Her sister is in UKM, taking doctor course, herself is taking Electronic Engineering. Kai Chin is in USM too, not sure what course she’s taking. Ler Wai is taking architecture in UTM Johor. So glad to know they all achieve their dreams! good!!!

over night in genting

Last night was in genting. I went for live band performance, for liquor and games. I met my sister there. She asked me to go into casino and gamble; of course I refused her la! I am so good boy 1! But in fact I’m not yet 21, that’s y can’t go in. but my bros complaint that I look like 36 years old… Wooo… But I invited my sister & her boyfriend to play skill games in the Vision City. Then we went to throw balls into bowls, holes and others. But we earned very less points! At last, we stuck at the Wheel of Fortune. We got 7 medium prizes, 1 small and earned almost 800 points! Haha.. Too much until can’t carry. Later I met my friend up and went to Safari Pub & Disco. We joined the live band performance and really enjoyed it a lot! So fun! Then the second morning I went to the vision city and challenge the skill game. AGAIN!! Haha.. This time we got 1 big prize, 3 mediums, 2 smalls and we earned 1450 points! Haha… We exchanged 3 mugs and kept the 400 points for my next visit!! And my next visit will be 18 / 07 / 2005!

20050706

freaking.....!

stress! stress! stress!

dying.......!

everyday facing alot of stress. "kee wang, please help, i need this quotation by today, please make it by today!", "kee wang, this quotation is really in rush, please make it before 11am by tommorrow!", "kee wang, i need itinerary for this quotation, can you please make it within 2 hour? i need to attend sales call after 2 hours. thank you first!"!!!! GOD! please, spend me some times if need my help!

freaking out.....!

business partner set me up again! i already told her clearly about my group's check - in date! she didn't tell me there's any surcharge!

argh!!!!!

fxxk!

lazy atmosphere....

today i found myself is really lazy and sleepy for whole day... no mood to work or eat! it's so bad cos i never lose my appetite! so bad...

shannen doherty...

i guess sy sure will yell, "can you please stop mentioning Shannen doherty?"
haha... she is my favourite actress! in charmed, she played the role as Prue! my favourite roles in that drama, with hyper cool power, and caring personality!

stoneage male still alives!!!

Today my colleague told me that her boyfriend wanted to split out with her. Wanna know what’s their reason for splitting out? It’s because she went out with male friend. Hello, this is already year 2005! Not stone age anymore! Respect your girlfriend’s privacy; this is already e-age! Everything we talk about equality, no more first priority for men, ok? Please, respect females around you. Please! Do it for world peace!

my serious thinking...

Last night I watched ‘dilemma wanita’. Maybe some guys will think I’m nuts! For watching this kinda drama, but from my heart, I know I was touched because of the story board. It was about household violence. A malay female got married to a malay guy. That malay guy bit his wife whenever she goes out as he thought his wife is having a lover without his knowledge. His wife stands it as her children are still young. Later then, she found her eldest son bit his girlfriend and only then she decided to move out and get divorced with his husband. I think she is really stupid for swallowing that insult for more than 15 years! She has made whole female wood ashamed! She should fight her husband, not just swallowed that insult and pretended like nothing went wrong! Her husband was really a jerk! This is too much! Well, women out there, please stand out if you face this problem, DO NOT APPEASE THIS TRAGEDY! I look down at this kinda human being! It’s your responsibility to love your life partner once you married her! They’re not your place to vent your spleen! If you can’t love them 100%, it’s still ok, but please, treasures them! PLEASE!

because of me!

Tonight shin ying got performance ler! I guess this is her first time to perform before crowd. Haha… fortunately it went on smooth! Because of me! Haha!

bad things happened to my friend...

My nice day ended at 2250 as my sissy’s friend told me that she divorced with her husband! I don’t know what had actually happened, but still I support her decision. She said she divorced with him on 15/06/2005. Now she’s better. I really hope I can help her. I knew her when I was teaching in SJK© Min Te. She taught me a lot of things. She is 4 years older than me. I knew she has a little problem with her husband. But I never expected this happened. Hope I can help!

nice day, nice mood!

Today is really a nice day! Nice weather, nice mood and nice happening things around me! Since today is Saturday, my working hour is from 9am to 12pm, so I finished my work at 12pm. I started to clean up my room at 1.30pm. It led me a lot of past memories of mine. Finished half part at 6pm cos at 7pm we had to attend my mamma’s friend’s daughter’s wedding dinner. I bumped into my friend in that dinner and we sat at same table and started to crap. I was home and watched ‘the ring 0’. It was so scary cos I don’t understand what it is all about! Then I drew a weird drawing! Just suddenly inspired and done it! It’s really a nice day to me!

oh...

My dear car was sold today…

frenz....

Just now I saw lieh wei wrote 3 testi in friendster for me. Hmmm~ Mmmm~ I’m touched! So gan dong~ he is really a nice friend! I feel my mood now is better. Thank you ar~~ u r really nice, now u r on the top in my friend list and shin ying on the top of my list! Thank you~

bad mood~

Last night was really bad moments! My brother told me that he is gonna sell my car cos he wanted to change car for his own, then his present car will authorise it to me. I know he understands cos I have to pay instalment monthly for about RM320. After selling my car, I don’t have to pay any instalment anymore. Moreover I can drive to Ipoh with his car as it is safer. My instalment will end after 2 more years. He really wants to help me. But I love my car so much, until I can’t let it go. Last night I cried cos I feel myself is useless. My car protects me from raging storm, sun and wind, but at the turn, I can’t even protect HIM! I guess HE sure will feel unfair, but what to do. This is becoming a fact. So sad…