confusion!!??

hmmmm....

now i become a totally bad guy! i did all the bad things! but am i really bad? i think so! cos i am always a bad guy and always do bad things. but this is the first time i feel sorry...

hmmmm....

don't know why my senior dislikes my ah lai so much! though i am the victim, i never even blame him. but my senior told me that my ah lai is not an ideal guy for me. i don't know, and i refuse to know. i kno friends might say i am coward, cos i dare not ta face the truth...

YES, I AM COWARD! so how? did i get around and suck your blood? pls... let me rest in peace, with my coward character...

the person i feel for, doesn't feel for me; the person feels for me isn't the person i feel for him! what a HUGE joke? it really sets me down... i can't control my own life! is this the meaning of life? is it??

can anyone offers me his / her helping hand to guide or pull me out? pls...

i don't believe in flying angels, but i believe in earth angels! many people around are the earth angels! but, can anyone just simply borrows me his / her hand? pls...? or maybe a hug?