f**k off!!

what the stupid old lady, PEARL!! wish her go to die, then die again!!!

23 / 04 / 2007 ...

after a helf usy day, now i am preparing for another challenging and busy working day upcoming... i have few appointments and sales calls have to be attended by tomorrow... and on tuesday, i will be away for another 2 days... work has become more and more challenging... i need to rest for few days, at least for my own privacy leave... i wanna go out and enjoy myself... but i think it wont be granted until july... this coming birthday got not much expectations, just wish can celebrate with family (if can of course wanna organise a BIG party with all frens together)... but anyhow, still have to go through my life no matter i celebrate it or not... i think it wil be another loely birthday... no matter what, now it is still too early to think of it...

moody...

lalalalallalalaallalalala...

happy, happy, happy... yayayayayayayayayayayayayaya.......

how are you? how am i??? i am fine, you are fine... everyone is fine... lalalalalalalalalalalalala....

a piece of shit!!!

damned!! i hate gathering ar!!! why every time it must be me!!! damned!!!! hate it!!! next year won't be my turn already!!! shit!!!!

old lost contact net friend...

a net friend, gary chew. he is now working in singapore. he is a very talented guy, he can sing, design and a very good friend to share your problem because he always knows how to comfort you... and he always has a pair of good ear... but now just after i read his blog, i feel, everyone also changes, but whether to good or bad, it's on our own... only us can control ourselves... i had done too many bad things, and now i also wanna change to be good... just hope people can realise this earlier, don't wait till the problem cannot be solved...

20070113

today i am staying in my friend office... came here to play. because i have got nothing to do. so bored, so i came...

life...

life is always full of ups and downs. i know this very well, so i will try to help other people while i still can help them. in my thought, giving is alwats bettr than receiving... nowadays, people only care for own sake, but they never go out and help, or even concern people outside. i was one of them before. but now, after i went out and saw the world surrounding, i am changed. i went to Rumah Wawasan, a place where those homeless kids stay. i went there just to see what i can help them. but when i stepped in, i knew i must change. because they all are very polite and nice. they never feel they were different from other kids out there. they are just who they are...

i got the chance tho explore the world of theirs. and i got to know the problem they are facing. they are short of financial support. (once again, i wanna declare, i am not rich!!) and they also need some volunteer teachers to guide them for their homework. so, what i can do is, go get sponsor for them. not necessary to be financial, but also old cloths, recycleable things and more. other than that, i promised to give them a helping hand for their homework, and not only me, i also got few frens who are willing to give a helping hands to those who are helpless...

now i am feeling sad, because what i can help them is only a small part of their problem only. anyway, i will try to get some sponsorship from Government. hopefully i can get to help them... god, please bless me...

Affin Bank Berhad...

Leading Affin Bank's family trip to kl Genting is quite challenging. As alot of problems happening! First, bus came late, second, tv broke down, third, bus leaking water while raining, forth, drivers are not familiar with kl ways. Fortunately all them do not realise. I covered it with my 'wisdom', as my brother asked me to settle it wisely. Sigh... I don't know what will happen on tomorrow... Dear god, please bless me.. Do not let anything happen. I'm scared!

Exhaustion...

近来一直带团,竟然感觉有点不能适应.首先是睡眠不足!这是我的致命伤,因为...我为此昨晚又流鼻血了!但没告诉他,怕他担心.我原本打算在这两个星期内好好休养的,但电话却响不停!而且一大早就得见客户了!睡迟点都不行!早点睡呢,却有堆积如山的工作!
我的身体的肌肉都僵硬得像机器人!每一处的肌肉都蹦得很紧,无论做什么都不行...
最可怕的是,精神不能集中,压力越抑制,越不能负荷!好恐怖啊!!!

sacrifications for growing up...

grown up and work, dont need to suffer for studying...

guess this is what teenagers and kids will think...i had this kinda thought once also... but now, wish time could turn back... i had paid for so much for growing up... i cant afford to give up anything now... need time to recover, at least 2 weeks... am still sick... sad.. nose allergy is attacking...

往事只能回味…

刚睡醒时看到了尤雅大姐演唱会的广告，很不经意地唱了伊人的成名曲「往事只能回味」，很自然地，我也想起了一幕幕的往事…

当我还小的时候，老妈很爱唱这首歌曲，而我也常听。当然，我完全体会不了那种意境。

现在我能体会那意境了，这也意味着我已长大了！
　
Part 1

往事只能回味…

刚睡醒时看到了尤雅大姐演唱会的广告，很不经意地唱了伊人的成名曲「往事只能回味」，很自然地，我也想起了一幕幕的往事…

当我还小的时候，老妈很爱唱这首歌曲，而我也常听。当然，我完全体会不了那种意境。

现在我能体会那意境了，这也意味着我已长大了！
　
Part 1

sickness...

i am sick again... heavy flu...why i always being attacked by flu? hate flu... i even hate those aunties who are too free to gossip around. don't even know what the heck is in their brain! hatred makes me angry, but i try to hold my temper. i wanna be a good EQ manager. so stressed for these few weeks, and have to go through the stress till the end of this year... don't know when can get over this illness, started to ill since middle of september.

hungry now... not yet go for lunch. rushing quotation...

i don't understand why some people can act like nothing happened after the harmness he brought to other? the world is really unfair to everyone. some still live nicely after hurting people, some, live unhappily, even he brings no harm to people... really unfair... i dont wanna change anything that is existing, i just want a fair life... where all people will get rewarded or punished accordingly... i feel selfish people always live better than other type of people, and selfish people bring most harm... only those kind hearted people will get bullied... why? thought the world has justice, but in fact, no, i mean NO! fed up... nothing will cheer me, just follow the old steps and go on my life in this way... i tried to fight, i tried to protest, i tried to object, all comes to nothing... fed up, really fed up with everything, guess it's time to accept what is coming... no point to fight, i won't win in this battle for forever, so what for? sad... feeling so suffer to accept, but other than accept, i have no more way to go...

sleepy mood...

A
maybe because i slept too late last night, now darn sleepy... deleting some photos in my friendster. i kept uploading photos b4, now have to delete it. and i wanna fresh up my friendster photos. already bored with the recent photos...


B
eye is dried, nose is itchy, having cough, running nose, eye itchy, nosebleed, and flu, all are caused by the stupid indonesia fire! now in sitiawan, u may look like in genting, but the weather is super duper hot!! now i have to wear mask to go out, else, nosebleed... so sad...


C
now i am the redecorating my office stage, replacing new posters, placing hanging mobiles, brochures, itineraries, cleaning work and more... so tire... next monday going out for tour again. stressed...


D
why i have to go through all this? i am sad... after all these hurts, i feel like i am almost numb d... can anyone help me?

心情的记录...

第一篇

现在在路途上，车上除了我，还有三十三位即将升上中学的小六生。没错！我正在工作，带领着这批小六生开始他们的毕业旅行！他们会不会因兴奋而睡不着？我不知。但我自己却因紧张而失眠了！或许我已太久没有带领小六生了，所以一直很压力！

第二篇

前阵子去了本国的著名避署高原，发生了一件不可思议的事！一向来入住酒店都很谨慎的我，偏偏就在当天忘了一些禁忌；也因为这次的疏忽，我碰到毕生难忘的经历！

当天，我和朋友出去喝酒，直至半夜才回房。我一人住。由于太疲累了，我竟然不到五分钟就睡着了！睡着睡着，朦朦胧胧之中好像有人把我摇醒，然后我就听到房门外有手推车的声音；我也不当一回事，因为我满脑子的睡虫一直叫睡觉。

“砰”

忽然间好像有人将手推车很用力地撞上我房门，把我惊醒！我心里很好奇，但也敌不过睡虫的呼唤，又倒下睡着了…

后来，这情况持续发生了四次，我就觉得不对劲，想了想，就换床位。换了床位，感觉似乎比较好了。但那声音依旧困扰着我！我知道这样继续下去绝对不是办法，就念了一段佛经，果然那声音已没那么频密地发出，直至我把佛经念完，声音也消失了…

supernatural ncident in highlands...

i went to highlands on the 3 october, staying overnight there. at the middle of the night, when i was sleeping, i heard a sound of heavy trolley moving. it's alike the sound of the room service trolley was moving, then suddenly the trolley bumped on my room door! i was shocked and jumped up from my bed! after that, no more sound. and i continued sleeping... and not longer than 30 minutes, the sound came again! again, i was awakened! i was so angry! and thought to go out and scold the next room. but after another thought, i decided to change bed... but after i changed bed, the sound was still there to disturb me. i realised that something shouldn't happen is happening!! i sat up and read dharma in my heart silently... after i finished the dharma, the sound disappeared! i was so scared, but my tiredness controlled me and i fell asleeped again... it's my true experience, believe it or not? it's up to you!

anger...

why everytime must become like this?

we are only cousin, why she always demands for more?? can't we just stay at where we are? is it that hard to be cousin? everytime when she asks me question, my answer is always the same!! why she still wanna ask me? when i answer, she is sad. what for? happy?

i hate people to be like this!! i know that she loves me, since i was 15 year-old. but please, give me a break!! that doesn't mean that i must love her!! and we are cousin some more!! what the heck she is up to? when i meet her, she says i give her hope; when i don't meet her, she says i hate her and leave her! can she just give me a break??

then only it'll be fair for all of us!! US!! means i, my LG, she, and her husband!!

sadness...

sigh... last night i had the biggest argument with the dearest 1. we never quarrelled... just i protested with silence... i didn't speak any words, i just kept crying... cried for almost 30 minutes... i used my phone to sms my dearest 1, though i was on phone with my dearest 1... cos i couldn't speak... sad... but now ok already... now no more sadness...

没有你的两天...

when you told me that you will be busy for these 2 days, i was really sad... why? i had been expecting for weekend for the past week, because i can talk to you for whole day... that is what i am looking for... now u tell me u will be busy for 2 days?? i am lost... sad...