numb...

hmmm.. recently i guess because i am getting too busy until i have no feeling anymore... busy + sick + sore throat + flu + nose blockage!! how come?? nothing more can be done?? so tire... wish can have a long vacation! things happen same daily!! i wish i have a kinda "Happy Medicine", so that i can be happier...

what will you do?

if one of your friends, (who you respect him / her so much) suddenly said, "the longer i got to know you, i find out that your IQ is getting higher, and as the other side, i find your EQ is getting lower!"

what will you react? getting angry cos he said your EQ is low? or happy because he said your IQ is high...? what is your reaction?? what will you do??? you wanna know how did i react....? (of course la, this is my blog ler...)

at first, i tried to give some excuse, but at the end, i was happy!! because ppl said i have high IQ ler... why should i feel sad? hahaha... i know i am coward, not daring enough to face the truth, but this is my life! i am deserved for what i think it's happy for my own!! why should i feel sad for ONE person's word? why??? no reason!! so what?? as long as i am happy, it's enough!! BUT!!! of course i will try to improve my EQ at the same way, anyhow, thanks, fabian!!

shit...

shit!! shit!!! shit!!!!

i lost my voice already!!! i cant sing anymore!!!

penang - [khoo kongsi]...

牙医...

星期六我要面对我很怕的一个人，
见他会痛，
可是就是因为痛才要去见他！

不见他更痛！
见他又要给钱，
又很贵！
没办法，
现在若逃避不见他，
拖久了更糟糕，
更贵！

牙医！！！
为什么你要这样！！

美容觉...

今天我睡了20分钟的美容觉！
好舒服！
皮肤觉得很清爽！

中秋节快乐...

减肥！！

我要减肥！！！

差劲的朋友...

绝对不是别人，所谓差劲的朋友就是我！！

以前当我刚踏入这个行业时，我认识了3个同行朋友，1是丽倩，1是姬娜，另一个是蛇力。我最不喜欢蛇力，因为她是够力的两头蛇，而她的名字刚好是蛇力 S h i r l e y！！姬娜算是直接派吧！她喜欢或不喜欢直接可以让你感受到的。而跟我最要好的是丽倩！我可以跟她无话不说，甚至连秘密！可是我已满久没跟她们联络了。

我所谓的差劲是，那边朋友在想念我，我却没有想过她们，我在这一边一直想着另一个人，而且还造成他的困扰，我这样是有良心吗？？我这样对吗？？人家都不要我了，而且还说得很明，很开，可是为什么我却一直挂着他？？？朋友啊朋友，对不起啊！！请你不要讨厌我，求你。。。我真的是很差劲！！我该封我自己为：最差劲的朋友！！

朋友帮我改了个名字，M R. S O M E T H I N G W R O N G！！我真的是又差劲，又有点问题的人！！

一家人...

哈哈哈哈...我最近跟菁菁扯上了关系！

我们竟然变成了一家人！！

我将我的预付号码换成了后付配套，而我的配套的call rate超便宜，又可以申请sub line，我和菁菁就注册了...现在，我们之间的通话有40个小时免付费，又有2000个免费短讯，这样我就可以和她常常保持联系了！现在，我们正等待着另一个一家人的加入，那就是。。。。

张舒仪

没有星星的夜里...

是谁导演这场戏,在这孤单角色里
对白总是自言自语,对手都是回忆...

一首感动又熟悉的"芸式情歌" . . . . 独角戏

how am i being??

最近生活还好,还是每天忙着工作;

也还是忙着追看"马小玲",哈哈哈哈哈...
请不要觉得我很无聊,这只是我的娱乐,我唯一的娱乐!
我要继续追看"马小玲",但是我把第三集看完了!
有点小小的失落感,因为我的娱乐完了...完了...
但是也明白了一些一些的道理...

工作的忙碌开始习惯了,
也习惯了每天都为了别人而生活.
可是我究竟在挣扎什么呢?
我在犹豫什么?
到底是什么??什么??
我要逃避什么??
是什么让我不敢面对??

你知道吗??
能告诉我吗??
为了"他"吗??
还是压力??
生活压力?工作压力??
为什么??

张惠妹的新专辑给我带来了很多的惊喜,
《star》
超好听的,
尤其是慢歌,有阿妹的一贯味道,
《快乐眼泪》,《一眼瞬间》,《如果你也听说》;
还有最有feel的一首,
《夏天的浪花》
歌词内的意境完完全全地呈现出来!

昨天我从木威驾车回来时,
我听了竟然随着节奏摆动,
好开心啊!
好久都没有听到这样的歌曲,
阿妹这此果然让我没失望!

工作+私人+生活+朋友=乱七八糟!!???

工作 : 除了忙碌, 无话可说;
私人 : 情绪起伏很大, 吓死人了;
生活 : 不健康的饮食习惯, 肥死人了;
朋友 : 莫名其妙被朋友抛弃...

a lonely saturday...

因为无聊＋寂寞＋假假，昨晚又炖了参须＋炮参＋枸积＋红枣＋干贝鸡汤。
有点偏心，买了两只鸡腿，和另外两只鸡腿＋上部分肉的大鸡腿。
炖了之后，大约整四点送到安娣家。她很开心！！
结果谈天谈到晚上八点多...
你们可以叫我《长气袋》！！！

这样也错了吗？

用情太深，也是一种错吗？付出太多也错了吗？成为他的避风港也错了吗？难道最亲的他，也避不开这样的诅咒吗？难道也要落得这样的田地吗？真的无法避免吗？

成为他的港湾，成为他的依靠，成为他所需的臂弯，难道这也错吗？一切一切，都错了吗？？

恋爱物语...

嫉妒是恋爱的姐妹，

就像恶魔是天使的兄弟。

很无奈的一句话，但是却很正确地说出了大家的心情。我很能体会这句话的意境，因为当我被爱情冲昏了头时，我也曾经这样...

爱情的一部分是：

让自己爱着的人幸福的活着...

生活上时常都会这样想，可是很多朋友曾跟我争执过，“让自己喜欢的人遇到幸福前，到处去碰撞墙壁，难道就不残忍吗？”那有人可以保证自己喜欢的人在身边就会幸福吗？？

让自己喜欢的人欺骗着，

总好过让自己喜欢的人告诉自己真相...

会吗？？我绝对赞成！被欺骗，至少是快乐的活着啊！总好过知道了事情的真相后，自己悲痛的活着...再怎么惨，自己都要承担，而且不敢让对方知道。

经过了风风雨雨，我再也不敢对爱情有什么期盼、憧憬了。生活越来越现实了！所谓的爱情，竟然是这么的脆弱，简直不堪一击！无论有多么强的信念，都会被现实的距离和时间所摧毁！爱情的建立，可以是多么地困难重重，也可以是在一瞬之间；但是爱情的摧毁往往就在一瞬之间。

只有一起哭泣的时候，才知道彼此有多相爱

无聊的邦咯游...

昨天凌莉说请吃午餐，就选择了批萨。约了薇菁一起，吃饱后，我觉得闲来无事，就提议去邦咯岛，反正我要去见顾客。结果我们就搭上2。45pm的船去...

一到邦咯岛，原本打算租三部摩托的，但我的顾客坚持我们驾她的摩托，只好顺从咯！由于兜错路的关系，我们去到另一个地方，再加上没有时间，就在那边拍照留念。

拍了之后就匆匆忙忙要赶回来了,赶上了5。00pm的船...

我是否太情绪化？？？

刚看完一步想看很久的电影《蓝宇》，感觉很空，就像整个人被掏空的感觉！很凄美的感觉...我真的希望这样的事情千万不要发生在我的朋友身上，不然我会哭到死的！

为什么？？ 为什么？？？ 为什么这样啊？？？？

我觉得很空，仿佛自己已不是自己了啊！！！

刚还差三点（不是差一点）掉泪！！怎么啦？？ 可是那片子真的很感动啊！

你怎么说...

最近发生了很诡异的事情，而且发生在我的办公室！！

不知为什么，我的办公室最近都没有小孩子来过，而在办公室后的垃圾桶竟然出现了“尿布”！！奇而怪哉啊！！

你怎么说？？

心情的落差...

原本该是很快乐的，但不只为什么，就是提不起劲来，结果，就在这阴天的早晨，我找到我的失落感陪我一起渡过...

一切一切都只是我的想象，原来，一切都有所谓的界限。而我就站在界限的边缘看者这个世界！！感觉上我就像井低蛙，我只是在瞄天空的一角，就觉得自己的存在好象是不可或缺的！可是事实总是与愿违。

所谓的朋友，就是生命中的过客而已，也没有什么真的天长地久。无论做得多好，时候一到就得分道扬镳，各走各路，为自己的前程忙碌奔波。缘分尽了就没有话好说了，无论亲如男女朋友，或是知心朋友，根本都没有一个规定说朋友就要永远地在一起，更没有什么法律条规说男女朋友就要长相厮守。骨头，对不起...但是我不知该如何开口，我只希望你能够明了。我知道你已经开始新的生活，我只好在此祝福你...

the meaning of friendship...

hmmm... comtinue the previous post...

to me, friends are always by my side when i need them, and no matter what i do, they wont ASK or WANT me to do what they think it's right... they will only tell me the consequent of doing this and that... to me, this means even lot than telling me what to do... bcos once i make up my mind, no matter what they say, i will still carry on... but to my friend, she thought that doing things according to own will will hurt her friends. actually to friends, as long as you dont become back stabber, nothing will reli hurt them. i mean major wont be problem... but still have to care for friends feeling as they are not born to get insulted or hurt by you, k?

so, my friend, please re value those "friends" that you think they are worthy enough for you to treasure...

and all my supportive fellow friends, thanks for not giving up on me... reli thanks alot!!

a HUG + KIss for u all...

to shinying...

shin ying, this is the best shot i can get... hope u can get to see the earrings..

好朋友...

当她告诉我她正面对这样的情形时，我身感同想！这事发生在我17岁时，我也不想再提。现在我觉得她并不需要经历这么惨痛的经验。所谓的好朋友，在这时期竟然没有挺她，反而还倒过来怪她！真的是她的错吗？？No, all bullshit!! they never know her characteristic. they just simply make their own judgement. situation become different when it happens on different people. we can't ask people to become what we want them to be！

最基本好朋友不会在自己脆弱时还怪自己！！


part 2, to be continued...

友情的定义...

昨晚跟一个又是好朋友、又是老朋友、但又很久没联络的朋友出去。嗯，久没见面的朋友当然是聊聊大家的生活啊，她的学业啊，等等的。后来，我们就谈到身边的朋友。原来我是很幸福的。她被所谓的好朋友定下的框框，累得自己手足无措，或者应该说害得她体无完肤。被伤害了之后，却被要求这样那样，公平吗？身为受害者，却被朋友埋怨，是这样的吗？？所谓的好朋友就是这样的吗？

part 1, to be continued...

Genting Hghlands trip...

休息一个多月后的昨天，再次踏上云顶高原！原本都不打算去的，可是为了顺从顾客的要求，只好在最后一分钟说去咯！

这次我去的心情比较轻松，因为我不是第一部巴士，所以不需要做什么手续，只是去到就可以进房间睡觉了。昨天也很开心，因为缆车没走，所以巴士直上！哇！！真幸福啊！！一进入房间，原本打算睡觉的，结果看了一整个下午的连续剧！《刁蛮公主》，《世间路》，《舞出彩虹》，《天下第一味》和《学警雄心》！结果眼睛肿了起来！很丑啊！！

吃过晚餐后，就和朋友一起去唱歌，〈K BOX〉当然是我们贫民阶级的首选，又便宜，又自由，又没有限定时间，而且爱进哪一间都可以！哈！唱的沙哑就和朋友跑到SKILL GAMES那儿玩，赢了一只大象，一只老虎！接着去喝酒...

朋友买了半夜场的票，结果一个人遛嗒，直到两点多，朋友打来，原来其中一人睡着了！！我就和另一位出去花园谈天。直到四点才回房睡觉。才睡不久就醒了，答应顾客八点半早餐。接着又继续睡至11点半。

现在很累、很爱睡！！

SHREK 相架...

相架！！

金牌...

欣颍妈妈的生日...欣颍托我帮她买个金链咀给她妈妈，

看～～

我特地打电话到欣颍家，谁知欣颍爸爸接电话！！

（冒冷汗中～～）“哈咯，请问欣颍妈妈在吗？”

（很酷中～～）“她不在。”

（害怕中～～）“那么请问她几点会回来？”

（很酷中～～）“现在几点？呃，大概一点多这样。”

（紧张中～～）“哦，那好，谢谢你，安哥。欣颍托我拿东西给她妈妈，我等下大概两点这样再打个电话来。谢谢你，安哥，谢谢!”

就这样，结束了这通恐怖又怕怕的电话！

shrek 耳朵...

你能相信吗？我终于得到了SHREK的耳朵了！！

这是免费的！！

老板娘送给我的！！

一切都乱了...

因为一件突发事件，因而打乱了我的阵脚！！

怎办？？

我只好向菩萨请求帮助....

B. U. S. Y. ...

this whole week only 1 word can describe my life, BUSY!!

grace (FYI, she was working for me while she waited for job confirmation. and she got the job in AmBank, started to work on Monday.) left for 1 week already. and this whole week, i worked alone and being like a bull.. 6 days, 2 monrning did not have my breakfast,
3 days had my lunch around 4pm... went home after 6pm for 4
days... this is busy life that i always wanted... i love to make myself numb in this way... and on monday, i have 5 quotations to reply... how many i had done it? NONE, yes, none of it... and tmrw have to prepare 2 sets of the applications for dad's bus permit... i am so lazy... tonnes and tonnes of workload is increasing... though i enjoy, i dislike to prepare dad's permit application...

hmmm... nowadays, i am so happy... because i have my own brand already...

curious...

being quite moody, because i am sinking into my work... workload is increasing... meeting clients, planning new itinerary, hotel bookings, tour arrangements, air ticketings and more... sigh... i seem like enjoy being busy and efficient... but do i really enjoy it?

歌曲：不远
歌手：萧亚轩 专辑：1087

☆music☆
突然那几秒
好像天使飞过
看著你微笑
那段时间
都禁止
远远的注视
仿佛爱情就该如此
为所爱的人
在我心里留一个位置
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望
你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福☆

不远处的我在默默祝福

☆对你的期待
每段都有记载
每一个眼神
我都想要收藏起来
不害怕寂寞
不止一样没人明白
已经快忘了
当初迁就在这里等待
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望
你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时
想起我
那是我最大的幸福
我站在你不远处..哦

或许你是对的...

歌曲：或许你是对的
歌手：康晋荣


或许你是对的
该离开的人是我
冷冷的藉口
我如何能回头
雨水还是泪水
终究是寂寞
留不住你的
我还算不算什黱
或许你是对的该
离开的人是我
强求的爱情
它不会有结果
我的深情
对你竟是种折磨
灰烬般的记忆
还算不算什黱
或许你是对的
该离开的人是我
在爱与不爱之中
总是叫人迷惑
或许你是对的
该离开的人是我
我却停不住
想你的念头
有绝对

你不爱我...

歌曲：你不爱我
歌手：康晋荣 专辑：我的家庭


习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝
这一次至少是我先说
离别有一些痛楚
看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切

你不爱我
是我舍不得
是我不配
为你在狼狈
你不爱我
你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我
是我舍不得
是我不配和命运作对
你不爱我
你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是
那后备

要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是
那后备

ding shi zha dan...

歌曲：定时炸弹
歌手：康晋荣 专辑：圆梦

定时炸弹作词:刘宏作曲:周杰伦

失去的爱
用伤痛去掩盖
装坚强却还是
露出破绽
为什黱相爱后
反而出错
谁将爱埋了定时炸弹
我们是在相识后
彼此伤害
设定的痛
该用什黱解开
什黱是天作之合
什黱是不太适合
是谁将我们的爱拉开(喔....)

爱的简单错
很难剩离开
你抱著我
却付不出关怀

爱的简单错
很难剩遗憾
忘了现在需要爱(喔.....)
忘了现

ye ye ye ye ...

歌曲：夜夜夜夜
歌手：梁静茹 专辑：梁静茹live全记录
LRC歌词 HOT• 搜索 "夜夜夜夜"mp3 打印预览

夜夜夜夜词 熊天平曲 熊天平
想问天你在那里
我想问问我自己
一开始我聪明结束我聪明
聪明的几乎的毁掉了我自己

想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里

你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑
慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我

你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑
慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我

想问天问大地
或著是迷信问问宿命
放弃所有
抛下所有
让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里

你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑
慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我

你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑
慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我

你也不必牵强再说爱我
反正我的灵魂已片片凋落
慢慢的拼凑
慢慢的拼凑
拼凑成一个完全不属於真正的我

我不愿再放纵 也不愿每天每夜每秒飘流
也不愿再多问 再多说 再多求我的梦

我不愿再放纵 也不愿每天每夜每秒飘流
也不愿再多问 再多说 再多求我的梦

li kai le...

歌曲：离开了
歌手：康康 专辑：灰色调

这次你真的要离开了
你决定这样放手
放在心里的一些回忆
你说你不再提起

我们的爱无法继续
有人慢慢的将我代替
代替我给你幸福快乐
我舍不得又能如何

我们的爱走到谷底
没关系我会好好的
我会彻底的选择逃避
忘记你谈何容易

我和你还是站在原地
我听见哭泣的你
我已经尽了最大努力
你说你不再考虑

我们的爱无法继续
有人慢慢的将我代替
代替我给你幸福快乐
我舍不得又能如何

我们的爱走到谷底
没关系我会好好的
我会彻底的选择
逃避忘记你谈何容易

我们的爱走到谷底
没关系我会好好的
我会彻底的选择
逃避忘记你谈何容易

我和你还是站在原地
我听见哭泣的你
我已经尽了最大努力
这次你真的离开了

眼泪...

流泪，原来也需勇气和学问的

我已不能流泪了...

两年了... 被伤害得太深了...

我的嘴唇...

我的嘴唇竟然是粉红色的...

being i am who i am...

love the feeling to be sharp again...

doing thing in efficient way, settling every upcoming matter...

everyday finish my work before time... u know the feeling?? very syok!!

wow!! i love to be the efficient me!!

why things have to happen in this way??? why???

习惯性...

每个人都有自己的角色－ROLE，而大家

各自有自己的惰性和习惯性...只要能够克服自己的惰性，

一切的坏习惯将被戒掉－Banished。

问题是，“你有那个勇气－BRAVERY去克服吗？”

还是你选择继续这样的过日子？

我选择了以我的勇气，

去面对我的惰性，

来克服我常不整理房间的习惯性！

但是，

有更多的东西，需要更多的勇气去克服！

我不能去面对－FACING。

我承认我懦弱－COWARD，我知道自己不该如此，

可是，

我已经习惯－USED TO了有人陪！！

忽然间，

我从天上掉到地上了-FELL FROM HAVEN TO EARTH

为什么这样？？

突然的离开，让我招架不住！

只好躲进无底的深洞、

无遂的黑夜！

你要我怎样？？

我只好继续回到我的世界里，

当我的乌龟

新床单...

刚去买了新的床单...

衣橱和柜子
地上的BEANIE BAG是给客人来坐的，，免得他们没地方坐。

书架、垃圾桶和网状的篮子（用来装要洗的衣服）

单调的床

已经点缀的床

烈伟说只要把东西放回原位，房间就

会很整齐、干净和美观了！而且我决定了，

只要搞掂不了，我就叫他来帮忙！

管他答不答应，总之他就一定要来！！

澄清...

这只熊熊是我亲手缝制的...

某人( L L W )的是翻版的！！

悠闲悠哉的星期天...

很空闲的一天...

于是和妈去“游车河”

直落巴迪的景点

直落巴迪景点之二

发电厂

Kampung Permatang Fishing Village

小渔村的神庙

就这样结束了两个小时的行程...

唱歌的疯狂...

知道吗？只要一开口唱，我就唱不停了！
昨晚我就开始唱，到现在我还在唱！

call me "sing ~ ing maniac"!! wahahahahahaha......

i am so crave for singing... how to stop it??

efficeint workers...

being efficient is being very capable in work. to me, to be efficient, must get your work done before deadline. if you can finish before time, that means you are more officient that you expected...

i was being very busy on friday, actually got loads of works, but i still got time to self snapped... haha... this is the advantage for finishing task before time...

午餐时间...

今天原本打算到KLG去吃午餐，可是...

竟然倒闭了...

倒闭＝BANKRUPT

竟然...竟然...

我还没吃过！！它竟然倒闭了！！

怎么可以啊？？

我要吃啊！！

结果呢？？？

当然是到麦当劳啦！！

麦当劳 ＝ McDonald's

i'm loving it... para para pa...

去到那，当然就是吃最新推出的～～

SHREK MEAL!!

Shake Fries...

Green (Shrek) Drinks...

McFoldover...

和我额外买的McFlurry

大家就“一家亲”了！！

夜间野生动物园...

昨晚我又和家人去了野生动物园...

不要问我为什么自拍，HELLO!!

动物园内不准用闪光灯拍照的啦！！

而且漆黑一片，所以就自拍咯！

新床单＋新枕头套...

为什么酱子？？

为什么？？

这就是我的新枕头套和床单！！

请给一些意见！！

无可挽救的错误...

我要钻洞！！！然后躲起来！！

我做了很丢脸的事！！怎么办？？？

惨了！！那我不是要挖很久？？？

我的朋友不开心...

每当他一不开心，我就开始担心了...

回忆...

六年级毕业照!!!

我的睡房...

这是我的睡房吗？？

刚才整理房间时，找到这个,

谢谢啊！

林 欣 颍

恢复正常的一天...

前阵子由于某些干扰，大大的影响了我的心情。现在，我已经明智在握，嘿嘿...

早上的天气很爽朗，就决定骑我的黑战士去上班...

到了中午，太阳竟然升起！晒死了！！我心里在暗暗地投诉...结果我下班时下了一场大雨至今！我被淋湿了...好惨哦！！全身上下都湿透，就连我的贴身裤也湿了...

友情的价值...

每一个人的价值都不同...

朋友的价值也不同...

有些朋友是属于分享喜悦的...

有些朋友则是属于分享烦忧的...

有些朋友是一生一世的...

有些朋友则是生命中的过客...

我很庆幸...

有一班很支持我，而且很挺我的朋友...

我有一群唱歌的朋友...

我也有一群吃喝的朋友...

我更有一群知心谈心的朋友...

一个厚脸皮的朋友...

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈...

当我说我要学摄影，而我最兴趣的摄影主题是《人》...

结果这人说：“拍我！拍我！”

我拿起相机，结果他就酱...

特此，这篇文章献给

**一个又爱又亲的朋友**

〈林 烈 伟〉

highlight to read the name

my room...

my brother in law helping me for re-furbishing my room... actually he and my sis painted the whole room... my mum moved all my thingies out and let them paint... wuaahahahahaha...

暧昧...

根据星座的特质，双子座的人是属于很会搞暧昧的一群...

而本少爷就是典型的双子座，但请不要误会，我不是花心，也不是贪玩。

我是真诚地对待所有人，而对方要误会，难道也是我的错吗？？

我只是做回我自己！

I AM WHO I AM

我是一个外向的人，肯定爱交朋友啊！

IF“喜欢交朋友 = 滥交”的话，

那我就无话可说了...

亲戚的结婚晚宴...

今天是我的堂叔的儿子的喜宴，我的堂伯又是那个表哥的干爹干娘。很复杂吧？我的堂伯母又是我很敬爱的一位。去年因为堂伯母的关系，我才能竞标取得他们银行的生意。

去年在车上我的堂伯母有要我唱歌，但我很婉转地拒绝了。今天是她开口要我唱歌，而且我妈也觉得我可以唱，再加上同桌的安哥安娣们“怂恿”，所以就上台了...

##战战兢兢##

好不容易才把歌唱完！该死的DJ开口要我唱第二首。结果又唱第二首...

##忽然想起##

我一到场的时候，那音响老板就来拉住我，原来他需要做一些报告，而他的DJ还没出现，所以就拉我去报告...我的妈啊！超恐怖，因为很多人都一直看我...原来我还没克服面对人群的问题。

而且我昨晚唱歌时也是很怕...

槟城＋十八丁游...

由于我姐的麻坡的朋友到来， 我们到了槟城和十八丁游玩...

主要我是要介绍十八丁，相信大家都不知哪里吧？通常大家都称它为KUALA SEPETANG。为红树林和海鲜闻名的小地方...我可以算是旧地重游！


待续...

还好的星期六晚...

星期六晚，通常都是大家所期待的一天，可是我却很害怕。因为很多时候我都一个人渡过的。今晚，我约了烈伟出去，后来又约了培欢。原本讲好烈伟唱歌给我听的，谁知去到那边烈伟反过来要我唱...好吧！反正我的歌声不会让同桌的人丢脸！

结果刚我拿white chocolate和brown chocolate给他时，他竟然开口说：“你们两个要乖乖的哦！”然后又自己回答：“哦！”...我的天啊，烈伟大哥，你年级都比我大，竟然还作出这样的事情...顶不顺，可是又忍不住觉得他很可爱，很久没看到他这样的表情了！就算再被刺多十多针也值得的！至少看到他开心！

直到今天，我才知道原来我唱歌是会有抖音的！我还以为要学到半年后才有这样的效果，原来我真的太聪明了，三个月就有了。

这阵子我的生活很开心！！无拘无束！！

原来我可以写华文了。。。

singing k...

i told lieh wei that i wanna go join sing cometition, his reaction was... "huh? a wang, u serious ar?". friends, i kno i never sing in front of you guys, but i tell u what, i can sing 1! u can go ask goh seiw yee, or grace, or tracy, or joyce, or brina, or even my mum... it's had been very time ago, i went for vocal course and not letting people knowing it. i felt shy to sing in front of crowd. i always got problem to face the crowd...

but now i over comed the problem... in fact, i always go to teluk batik beach bistro there singing k 1, some more not hiding in the room 1. now i become the regular customer there... ppl there all know my singing... last night i went with goh seiw yee, we 2 sang for around 3 hours, continuously 1, cos no ppl there wanted to sing. actually it was very simple, cos last night there got another event holding.. whole night interrupting us for singing... fed up... but enjoyed our time!

after 3 years of waiting, i got nothing... now it is proven, i am just a fool...

if i were u...

suddenly, i had a wierd thought...

if i can leave all my identity bahind, then the life would be much more nicer... actually everyone has their very own role to be played... we got our own "lock", which will shape us into the shape that we dont reli wanted to be... though we dislike, we still need to be in the shape. the society is materialistic, u like it or not, u still have to take it... this is the society... really...

and i'd learnt something, the greatest love among this love, is about sacrification... it's so sweet, and uncapable... we can feel, but we cant touch...

my baby you...

my baby you
are the reason i could fly...
and cause of you
i dont have to wonder why...
baby you
there's no more getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive......

what a touching song, i got to know this song just not long ago, the lyrics almost sucked my tears out!! and marc anthony got such a touching voice... my god... when can i get such a nice and touching voice?? i wanna sing!!!

regrettness....

i ate 392g of haagen dazs ice cream... myself in 10 minutes! being selfish and greedy... now have to pay liao... stomach ache... dying... damned regretted...

weird thought...

when i thought i have had all i wanted, at the end of the day i realised that i have nothing at all... things always happens like this, dont u think so? but when we change the point of view, things will become like this, when i thought i have nothing at all, at least i still have my brain to think... very weird thought...

sleepy...

suddenly feel so tired and sleepy... hmmm.. just suddenly think of something down...

f**k off!!

what the stupid old lady, PEARL!! wish her go to die, then die again!!!

23 / 04 / 2007 ...

after a helf usy day, now i am preparing for another challenging and busy working day upcoming... i have few appointments and sales calls have to be attended by tomorrow... and on tuesday, i will be away for another 2 days... work has become more and more challenging... i need to rest for few days, at least for my own privacy leave... i wanna go out and enjoy myself... but i think it wont be granted until july... this coming birthday got not much expectations, just wish can celebrate with family (if can of course wanna organise a BIG party with all frens together)... but anyhow, still have to go through my life no matter i celebrate it or not... i think it wil be another loely birthday... no matter what, now it is still too early to think of it...

moody...

lalalalallalalaallalalala...

happy, happy, happy... yayayayayayayayayayayayayaya.......

how are you? how am i??? i am fine, you are fine... everyone is fine... lalalalalalalalalalalalala....

a piece of shit!!!

damned!! i hate gathering ar!!! why every time it must be me!!! damned!!!! hate it!!! next year won't be my turn already!!! shit!!!!

old lost contact net friend...

a net friend, gary chew. he is now working in singapore. he is a very talented guy, he can sing, design and a very good friend to share your problem because he always knows how to comfort you... and he always has a pair of good ear... but now just after i read his blog, i feel, everyone also changes, but whether to good or bad, it's on our own... only us can control ourselves... i had done too many bad things, and now i also wanna change to be good... just hope people can realise this earlier, don't wait till the problem cannot be solved...

20070113

today i am staying in my friend office... came here to play. because i have got nothing to do. so bored, so i came...

life...

life is always full of ups and downs. i know this very well, so i will try to help other people while i still can help them. in my thought, giving is alwats bettr than receiving... nowadays, people only care for own sake, but they never go out and help, or even concern people outside. i was one of them before. but now, after i went out and saw the world surrounding, i am changed. i went to Rumah Wawasan, a place where those homeless kids stay. i went there just to see what i can help them. but when i stepped in, i knew i must change. because they all are very polite and nice. they never feel they were different from other kids out there. they are just who they are...

i got the chance tho explore the world of theirs. and i got to know the problem they are facing. they are short of financial support. (once again, i wanna declare, i am not rich!!) and they also need some volunteer teachers to guide them for their homework. so, what i can do is, go get sponsor for them. not necessary to be financial, but also old cloths, recycleable things and more. other than that, i promised to give them a helping hand for their homework, and not only me, i also got few frens who are willing to give a helping hands to those who are helpless...

now i am feeling sad, because what i can help them is only a small part of their problem only. anyway, i will try to get some sponsorship from Government. hopefully i can get to help them... god, please bless me...

Affin Bank Berhad...

Leading Affin Bank's family trip to kl Genting is quite challenging. As alot of problems happening! First, bus came late, second, tv broke down, third, bus leaking water while raining, forth, drivers are not familiar with kl ways. Fortunately all them do not realise. I covered it with my 'wisdom', as my brother asked me to settle it wisely. Sigh... I don't know what will happen on tomorrow... Dear god, please bless me.. Do not let anything happen. I'm scared!

Exhaustion...

近来一直带团,竟然感觉有点不能适应.首先是睡眠不足!这是我的致命伤,因为...我为此昨晚又流鼻血了!但没告诉他,怕他担心.我原本打算在这两个星期内好好休养的,但电话却响不停!而且一大早就得见客户了!睡迟点都不行!早点睡呢,却有堆积如山的工作!
我的身体的肌肉都僵硬得像机器人!每一处的肌肉都蹦得很紧,无论做什么都不行...
最可怕的是,精神不能集中,压力越抑制,越不能负荷!好恐怖啊!!!

sacrifications for growing up...

grown up and work, dont need to suffer for studying...

guess this is what teenagers and kids will think...i had this kinda thought once also... but now, wish time could turn back... i had paid for so much for growing up... i cant afford to give up anything now... need time to recover, at least 2 weeks... am still sick... sad.. nose allergy is attacking...

往事只能回味…

刚睡醒时看到了尤雅大姐演唱会的广告，很不经意地唱了伊人的成名曲「往事只能回味」，很自然地，我也想起了一幕幕的往事…

当我还小的时候，老妈很爱唱这首歌曲，而我也常听。当然，我完全体会不了那种意境。

现在我能体会那意境了，这也意味着我已长大了！
　
Part 1

往事只能回味…

刚睡醒时看到了尤雅大姐演唱会的广告，很不经意地唱了伊人的成名曲「往事只能回味」，很自然地，我也想起了一幕幕的往事…

当我还小的时候，老妈很爱唱这首歌曲，而我也常听。当然，我完全体会不了那种意境。

现在我能体会那意境了，这也意味着我已长大了！
　
Part 1

sickness...

i am sick again... heavy flu...why i always being attacked by flu? hate flu... i even hate those aunties who are too free to gossip around. don't even know what the heck is in their brain! hatred makes me angry, but i try to hold my temper. i wanna be a good EQ manager. so stressed for these few weeks, and have to go through the stress till the end of this year... don't know when can get over this illness, started to ill since middle of september.

hungry now... not yet go for lunch. rushing quotation...

i don't understand why some people can act like nothing happened after the harmness he brought to other? the world is really unfair to everyone. some still live nicely after hurting people, some, live unhappily, even he brings no harm to people... really unfair... i dont wanna change anything that is existing, i just want a fair life... where all people will get rewarded or punished accordingly... i feel selfish people always live better than other type of people, and selfish people bring most harm... only those kind hearted people will get bullied... why? thought the world has justice, but in fact, no, i mean NO! fed up... nothing will cheer me, just follow the old steps and go on my life in this way... i tried to fight, i tried to protest, i tried to object, all comes to nothing... fed up, really fed up with everything, guess it's time to accept what is coming... no point to fight, i won't win in this battle for forever, so what for? sad... feeling so suffer to accept, but other than accept, i have no more way to go...

sleepy mood...

A
maybe because i slept too late last night, now darn sleepy... deleting some photos in my friendster. i kept uploading photos b4, now have to delete it. and i wanna fresh up my friendster photos. already bored with the recent photos...


B
eye is dried, nose is itchy, having cough, running nose, eye itchy, nosebleed, and flu, all are caused by the stupid indonesia fire! now in sitiawan, u may look like in genting, but the weather is super duper hot!! now i have to wear mask to go out, else, nosebleed... so sad...


C
now i am the redecorating my office stage, replacing new posters, placing hanging mobiles, brochures, itineraries, cleaning work and more... so tire... next monday going out for tour again. stressed...


D
why i have to go through all this? i am sad... after all these hurts, i feel like i am almost numb d... can anyone help me?

心情的记录...

第一篇

现在在路途上，车上除了我，还有三十三位即将升上中学的小六生。没错！我正在工作，带领着这批小六生开始他们的毕业旅行！他们会不会因兴奋而睡不着？我不知。但我自己却因紧张而失眠了！或许我已太久没有带领小六生了，所以一直很压力！

第二篇

前阵子去了本国的著名避署高原，发生了一件不可思议的事！一向来入住酒店都很谨慎的我，偏偏就在当天忘了一些禁忌；也因为这次的疏忽，我碰到毕生难忘的经历！

当天，我和朋友出去喝酒，直至半夜才回房。我一人住。由于太疲累了，我竟然不到五分钟就睡着了！睡着睡着，朦朦胧胧之中好像有人把我摇醒，然后我就听到房门外有手推车的声音；我也不当一回事，因为我满脑子的睡虫一直叫睡觉。

“砰”

忽然间好像有人将手推车很用力地撞上我房门，把我惊醒！我心里很好奇，但也敌不过睡虫的呼唤，又倒下睡着了…

后来，这情况持续发生了四次，我就觉得不对劲，想了想，就换床位。换了床位，感觉似乎比较好了。但那声音依旧困扰着我！我知道这样继续下去绝对不是办法，就念了一段佛经，果然那声音已没那么频密地发出，直至我把佛经念完，声音也消失了…

supernatural ncident in highlands...

i went to highlands on the 3 october, staying overnight there. at the middle of the night, when i was sleeping, i heard a sound of heavy trolley moving. it's alike the sound of the room service trolley was moving, then suddenly the trolley bumped on my room door! i was shocked and jumped up from my bed! after that, no more sound. and i continued sleeping... and not longer than 30 minutes, the sound came again! again, i was awakened! i was so angry! and thought to go out and scold the next room. but after another thought, i decided to change bed... but after i changed bed, the sound was still there to disturb me. i realised that something shouldn't happen is happening!! i sat up and read dharma in my heart silently... after i finished the dharma, the sound disappeared! i was so scared, but my tiredness controlled me and i fell asleeped again... it's my true experience, believe it or not? it's up to you!

anger...

why everytime must become like this?

we are only cousin, why she always demands for more?? can't we just stay at where we are? is it that hard to be cousin? everytime when she asks me question, my answer is always the same!! why she still wanna ask me? when i answer, she is sad. what for? happy?

i hate people to be like this!! i know that she loves me, since i was 15 year-old. but please, give me a break!! that doesn't mean that i must love her!! and we are cousin some more!! what the heck she is up to? when i meet her, she says i give her hope; when i don't meet her, she says i hate her and leave her! can she just give me a break??

then only it'll be fair for all of us!! US!! means i, my LG, she, and her husband!!

sadness...

sigh... last night i had the biggest argument with the dearest 1. we never quarrelled... just i protested with silence... i didn't speak any words, i just kept crying... cried for almost 30 minutes... i used my phone to sms my dearest 1, though i was on phone with my dearest 1... cos i couldn't speak... sad... but now ok already... now no more sadness...

没有你的两天...

when you told me that you will be busy for these 2 days, i was really sad... why? i had been expecting for weekend for the past week, because i can talk to you for whole day... that is what i am looking for... now u tell me u will be busy for 2 days?? i am lost... sad...

meeting...!!??

i went to meet for someone, someone who is very importnant in my life... but due to timing problem, we could only meet for 12 hours and 25 minutes... so sad...

anger...

don't know why, suddenly i feel so angry!! i don't know what am i angry at, but for sure i am not angry at my dear BB (LG)!!

sadness...

frens are moving out from sunway, now sunway UNITE no longer exist... so sad... no more laughters in sunway pyramid... bad feeling... this feeling drags my happiness down! last night i went to my doc, he told me that my blood pressure return back to normal level! but now i've got no mood... sad...

mixed feelings...

... sad + angry + jealous + envy + hatred + love + confused + numb ...

... sad ...
is because my dearest 1 kept something from me...

... angry ...
is because my dearest 1 hid something from me...

... jealous ...
is because i am not the only one in my dearest 1's heart...

... envy ...
is because i thought i am the most important 1 for my dearest...

... hatred ...
is because i hate the "someone" in my dearest 1's heart...

... love ...
is because i love my dearest 1...

... confused ...
is because in my dearest 1's heart, i am not the only one...

... numb ...
is because i feel no hunger...

my promise to you...

I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!! I HOPE YOU CAN BEAR THIS IN YOUR MIND...

sadness...

i thought we really have no secret in between us... sigh... now i feel so bad and sad... why would ths happen? i wish i could turn back the time and take back all the questions i asked. now, i feel so chaos... am i really the one you love? i am doubting... though deep down inside my heart i know that you really love, i can't stop myself from comparing me to "someone". i know i shouldn't compare myself to "someone", but i really hope that i am your only one...

now, i also don't know what to say or what to do... i spent whole morning doing nothing, just sit right infront of computer and updating my blog... this is the only place i feel free to write whatever i wanna write... before this morning, you were my best audience, but now, i also doubt...

i am so sorry for being too sensitive all the time, but do you know that when you told me that you had sprained your leg, how worry was i? guess you will never know... you always tell me that you are tired, you are sleepy, my heart is so painful. but do you ever know that, i really hope that i can be there and schedule your time for you? everytime i get angry easily when you told me how late you slept, or how busy you are, do you know why? gues none will know. i feel like my care to you is more than you can afford, and it's becoming burden to you... i love you, i don't want you to go on your life with this heavy burden. i really don't want!! i am so sorry...

i am thinking, if without me, your life might be more colorful, cos i always stop you from doing this and doing that... i am so selfish... but believe me, i really love you, and i only want the best for you... but i scared my care will be too much for you... i am sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry... I LOVE YOU!!

honestly, i had few relationship before, but i never took it seriously, because i don't believe that unselfish love would exist... and i don't really trust in any relationships... but now i am totally different. because i had met you... my life has changed, i am now very serious in our relationship... if you wanna go for a better man, i won't and can't stop you, because, i want only the best for you... really...

lazy...

hmmmm... lately i am so lazy, not meaning lazy to work, just that i find it's quite hard for me to concentrate... i always fall asleeped when i am sms~ing with my dearest 1... i always lose my concentrate whole talking to frens...

i don't really know what is happening... but one thing for sure, i had made my dearest 1 sad for my sleepiness... so bad... i am sorry... really sorry... i love my BB... cute BB... understanding BB... nice BB... caring BB... tak malu de BB... kind BB... helpful BB...