why am i being disappeared?

Today just in mood to write blog. Third day right after my first blog was published, my dearest grandpa passed away. This made me sad for about 8 weeks. I couldn’t even mention about his death, as my tears would burst out in any seconds. I was trying to be strong, but at nighttimes, if I ever think of him, still I will cry. He was a very positive man. He never blamed me for showing filial obedience. This makes me feel sorry to him. But anyways, I will take a good care of my grams to pay for what I’d done to my grandpa. I had learnt a valuable lesson through this incident; please love anybody that cares you before it is too late.